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25th Apr 2024

Billie Eilish makes X-rated confession about how she realised she wasn’t straight

Nina McLaughlin


Billie Eilish has spoken out about her sexuality in a new interview with Rolling Stone.

Last year, Eilish accused Variety of ‘outing’ her on the red carpet at their Hitmakers event.

“Thanks variety for my award and for also outing me on a red carpet at 11 am instead of talking about anything else that matters i like boys and girls leave me alone about it please literally who cares stream “what was i made for,” she wrote in an Instagram post afterwards.

However, in the new interview, the 22-year-old says she felt she overreacted to the incident.

“I went into Billie Eilish interview mode,” she recalled adding, “‘Oh, I don’t care. Yeah, I’ll say whatever. Wasn’t it obvious?’ And then afterwards I was like, ‘Wait. It wasn’t obvious to me.'”

“I was never planning on talking about my sexuality ever, in a million years,” she continued. “It’s really frustrating to me that it came up.”

”Girl, no I didn’t but I kind of thought, ‘Wasn’t it obvious?’ Like its kinda been… I just didn’t realise people didn’t know.”

Straight off the back of her DJ set at Coachella where she played a snippet of her new track ‘Lunch’, the singer opened up about the meaning behind the song.

“I wrote some of it before even doing anything with a girl, and then wrote the rest after,” she explained. “I’ve been in love with girls for my whole life, but I just didn’t understand—until, last year, I realised I wanted my face in a vagina.”

She went on to explain her relationship with her own body.

“TMI, but self-pleasure is an enormous, enormous part of my life, and a huge, huge help for me,” she told the outlet. “People should be jerking it, man. I can’t stress it enough, as somebody with extreme body issues and dysmorphia that I’ve had my entire life.”

Eilish went on to give some more details about masturbation, and said that she finds touching herself in front of a mirror to be particularly empowering.

“Partly because it’s hot, but it also makes me have such a raw, deep connection to myself and my body, and have a love for my body that I have not really ever had,” she said.

“I’ve got to say, looking at yourself in the mirror and thinking ‘I look really good right now’ is so helpful.”

“I should have a Ph.D. in masturbation,” she continued.

“I have learned that looking at myself and watching myself feel pleasure has been an extreme help in loving myself and accepting myself, and feeling empowered and comfortable.”

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